Lady of the Night- D- The Cheap Computer Nerd

Ironic ain't it, the entry being called D, I mean we met through the dating app not the sex app multiple things that I hated from this man and I still messed around with him because again desperation:

1.He loved to call me good girl even though we had just met and he wasn't even sure I was into that

2.He definitely lied about his height or hid it from his profile. When he got out of the car my air forces almost made me his height, and i gasped

3.From the get-go, it was kind of cheap when it came to food, even though he said it was a date

4.Our date consisted of walking once through the beach, and then around the neighborhood and then immediately back to his place

5.Again, that lack of follow-up does not make them a good friends with benefits. The least you can do is play into the friendship part more

6.A recurring event that will continue to come back, THEY NEVER LOOK LIKE THEIR FUCKING PICTURE

We watched a movie that I liked, and immediately, not even fifteen minutes in, we were already making out on his bed, ended up naked within the first date, and I loved the act but hated how little effort he gave.

We weren't that compatible and never saw him again blocked him since I am the problem, and I am okay with that, too bad he would've been nice to keep in contact considering the proximity of his place to mine.

A part of me was in denial that I wanted a deeper connection, but the desperation after months of being used and being treated horribly blinded me. I felt like I needed to use all of these new men to wipe the old one off of me.

D and I ended up on his bed both of our chests facing each other and finishing the end of the movie, he again kicked me out because of work but damn it was nice being with someone for the first time was in shape, his legs were nice and chunky, and honestly writing this makes me remember how down bad I was in the moment, continue to want to make out with him even thought it was getting extremely late, after everything he kicked me out and I never saw him again.

Again, I denied him sex, a part of me, even as I am writing this, am very scarred from what happened with the two guys I let into my life in that way, so even though this series is about me getting somewhat nasty with these guys, they are never about sex.